Tags, rejection and a spaceship redesing

Today a fellow artist told me that with the change of eclipse, tags can help people to find your drawings better on deviantArt. 

So I spend all afternoon today adding tags to my old drawings because I’d like people to find my stuff easily and ask me for comissions, because I’m having a hard time to pay my landlord this month.

Meanwhile on my linkedid, the fact I had a lot of “thanks a lot for your interest on our enterprise but we will hire someone else” messages waiting for me made my head hurt.

And then I passed the rest of the night trying to figure out how my comic panels would be better for continuing “Nature’s guardian” but I couldn’t finish a thing because my eye started to hurt, aaand now I have nothing to post XD

So I think that’s why I’m writting this, because I apologize for not posting any drawing today.

Also, I’m trying to continue the redesing of Polaris because the ship will be on almost every episode of the saga of comics so, I cannot start anything without it!  XDfellow artist told me that with the change of eclipse, tags can help people to find your drawings better on deviantArt. 

So I spend all afternoon today adding tags to my old drawings because I’d like people to find my stuff easily and ask me for comissions, because I’m having a hard time to pay my landlord this month.

Meanwhile on my linkedid, the fact I had a lot of “thanks a lot for your interest on our enterprise but we will hire someone else” messages waiting for me made my head hurt.

And then I passed the rest of the night trying to figure out how my comic panels would be better for continuing “Nature’s guardian” but I couldn’t finish a thing because my eye started to hurt, aaand now I have nothing to post XD

So I think that’s why I’m writting this, because I apologize for not posting any drawing today.

Also, I’m trying to continue the redesing of Polaris because the ship will be on almost every episode of the saga of comics so, I cannot start anything without it!  XD

I have a tumbrl :D

Bonjour les mecs!
I know I've left this blog a bit forgotten, sorry about that...But it's for a good reason though, well, appart because this year have been big changes in my life, and I was busy solving them. Also because I have made a tumbrl and I feel it's more practic and easier to upload the art, videos and photos there than here, and I have got some people who follow me more there and enjoy seeing my work :)

It doesn't means that I'm going to close this blog, Just means I'll share my tumbrl posts here :)
And when I feel like rambling I'll use this blog, hehe

A not a so well starting...

Hey there folks? Hope you're having a good weekend.

For this 2017 I had plans. Cool artistic plans that were making me excited...yet I don't feel like doing them anymore.

I don't feel the strength to talk with anybody or going to dA or twitter or any other social network. I will not even bother to talk about the story behind what happened yesterday, because I think is not necessary...Nobody can help me with this anyways. Is a problem I have to deal with alone.

Yesterday night I just was happy to be able to hang out with a friend, a friend who have been with me for 4 years now. But at some point things started to turn out a bit bad, when he asked me for a drawing with my characters, so I felt it was going to be uncomfortable for me to draw.

He wanted me to draw explicit sexual stuff with my underaged characters...obviously it made me feel very uncomfortable cos sexual stuff and mature art is something I'm not into, and I don't have anything to do with.

So I told him "sorry but I don't think I could draw that, but what about this other thing?", and I did my best to explain him that probably I wouldn't feel confortable with drawing something like that. I tried to explain him that if I did it, I wouldn't feel good doing it and that it was not healthy to do something I wasn't into. And also there were other reason, that I would consider that to be risky taking in count that my work and THESE characters in particular, are for family entertainment. 

And then he got sad, and he said I was offending him for saying no to that and it was like telling him that he was "weird" and "pervert".  And no matter what I said to him to make him understand my point, he kept being sad and bothered.

In short, he spent all night making me feel guilty for something I shouldn't feel guilty about.

Because you know, I am in my right to say no to draw stuff I don't think it's appropiate for my characters or stuff that I'm not into, or that doesn't reflect my personal tastes. 

Every artist has that right...and I think people should respect that.

I feel upset right now cos because of that reason I spent my night up trying to comfort him, and after that I spent the rest of the night worried about what happened and that's why I wasn't able to wake up earlier and not only I wasted the morning and I wasn't able to work, but also  I lost my appointment to get to pick up my school documents and to see that about my social service. And now I had to make another appointment and they said I will have to wait for Wednesday of this next week that comes.

However, this is not the first time he ask me something that doesn't fit my characters, or that I'm not comfortable with. This is a problem I've been having with this same person for some years now, and I don't know what to do to solve it on a good way.

There's a way to solve it of course, the easiest one that is logic, to block this person or just say "sorry but I don't want that we are friends anymore."

The other option is something I cannot do either. I cannot just change my nick and hide either,  cos we share the admiration for some artists, so we have a couple of friends in common.  Thus, as soon as I started following the other artists, he will find me.

And I don't want to any of that either, because..because that's not true! I don't want to not be friends with him anymore!

At contraire. I want to hang out with him and be friends because he have done a lot of cool stuff for me. Not only giving me art supplies, but also he inspired me to create the designs sheets of Jean, Laura, and Estelle. 

In fact, they were for a long time only in my imagination....and I think without him I wouldn't have had the motivation for actually create them.  Also, we have seen movies and tv shows together and if it wasn't for him I wouldn't have discovered a couple of cool cartoon shows.

So, I enjoy his company, and I don't want to say goodbye to him forever...I just want to be friends and hang out and make him understand that the fact I considere it isn't appropiate to draw fetishes with my characters doesn't mean I don't respect his ideas or personal tastes, like he said. It's simply that I'm not into those ideas. 

I just wish I could make him understand everybody has their right to decide what to like and what not to like. People like what feels good for them. And that's ok.

So..I think I write this cos I would really like to find some help from someone who have also experienced this, to solve this problem a good way! In a way he can be happy and he doesn't feel bad or takes it too personal. 

I hope I can solve this problem soon, because I really appreciate this person and I enjoy a lot to talk about cartoons and comics and to do giftart for him! ^^

But I aslo need to take care of the image my characters give and conserve the art about them proper because they're for kids and family.

....So, I will think about what to do in these days, and hope things go well this time...

I will do my best to show my appreciation and conserve the frienship, I think it's worth the effort!

Thanks for reading this! Writting here is the makes me feel better when sad or bad things happens, and helps me to organize my feelings and eventually find solutions to things.

November comic photos.

Hey, howdy folks?!
Today I'd like to share with you something I did for one of my collegue projects. It was made in 3 days, and was a comic of 20 pages.

The content in my comics.

Hey there folks, hope you're having a good weekend. 

Right now I'll talk you about the stuff I will post in the comics I'm planning to make. I want to talk about something important, since a couple of folks have been asking about it. 

Looking for webcomics inspiration in popular webcomics sites, like tapastic and others, I've noticed nowadays lots of people are dazzled with that new trend of making comics with lesbian/gay/bi and other similar stuff in it, and comics about saying that being like that is good and people should support them. 

A lot of comic makers even claim to be gay or bi or similar just cos they realized that doing that they can get fame, popularity and more indulgence from people without they actually have worked on their stuff to earn all that. 

I just want to say, my peeps, that I'm not part of that trend. That you will not see anything like that on any of my comics. Or any of my work in general. Never. And not because I have "hatred againts them" or anything like that.

But simply because, honestly, I'm not into that, and will never be. Is just not my personal taste. 

And even if I know it will be a lot harder for me to get myself known as an artist than it is the people who do this thing; I much prefer to be nice and honest with myself and the people arround me, than to be a fake, tricky jerk who pretents I like something just because is trendy and will make win fans, and to tell you lies!

I don't like gay stuff, and I never will. And I have my right to say I don't like gay stuff and my right to not having anything to do with it. As well as these people have their right to say they love it and make comics about that and see stuff with that theme in it. I have my right to say this as I have my right to say I don't like gross-off humor or gore. And people who like these things have their right to do stuff with it and enjoy it.

 Plus, I think all this subject of sexual preference is something that is very personal and intimate, a choice that is taken in private and that you only should share with the one who will be your lifetime partner. So it shouldn't be anyone's bussines but yours, and of the person who will marry you. 

I think the sexual preference shouldn't be showed off and mocked of and make people argue about it like if it was an spectacle. Precisely because it's a personal choice and private choice. 

 In the oher hand, I've seen a lot of people saying all arround the web comments about that "being gay is great and everybody should be gay" or that "you need to be with a gay person to know if you like it" and trying to convice people to be gay by pushing these ideas on their heads with the stuff they make.

I've seen straight people being insulted and called "weird" by gay people, and vice-versa. And the saddest thing, I've seen straight people being bullied very much lately on the internet, just for saying they're not gay and they don't like gay stuff, or that they don't support gays. 

And just seriously, I don't get all that violence and war!  I think people need to stop that nonesense fights and conflicts. Is a nonesense war that only causes pain and misery.

I think people should stop bullying others for being gay or for being straight, for liking gay stuff or because they don't like it, for having fetishes some people consider weird or because they don't have weird fetishes.... ...And in general, stop hurting other people for being excentric, for being too intelligent, for being curious, for being different... for not fitting in the "average human individual" norm. Like me. 

We human beings are strong, witty, compassionate and understanding. We also have the free will to hurt if we want to. we have both habilities withing ourselves; the hability to do good and to do bad to our fellow human beings.

And we are intelligent, sientent, and civilized people. So we have the power to choose, and we should choose to be good and respectful with each other! 

Sure all of us are different, but that's what makes us unique and fun and interesting. Also we have more similarities than differences, we all havefears and dreams, We all have curiosity for discovering new things, we ask questions. We all want friends, we all dream to be accepted by others and belong to somewhere, a place to call home. 

And I think if we could pay more attention to our similarities and share them than pay attention to our differences and argue about them....this world would be in peace, and we would all be truly happy.

  That's why I choose to treat this subject with all the touch and respect it deserves. Because I don't want to offend anybody. I have never insulted or offended anybody, and never will.

 I just wanted say my personal impression about what I have seen in the webcomics industry, and I let you know what I've decided to do with my personal artistic work.

And I hope you do choose to do good when you read this, and this entry doesn't attract a crowd of angry people with their torch and forks. I hope you respect this opinion of mine as I respect other people's one. 

Not just because something is popular I will have to like it.

And not just because something is unpopular I will have to hate it. 

I know the stuff I post in my artwork and comics is not popular and not much people seem to like it. But I don't care about being trendy!

I just like what I like and do what I do for the sake of loving it and enjoying it. Because I feel is meaningful to me, as I said in my other journal on dA. Because I feel in the heart it does good to my soul and mind...because I truly love it!!!

 And I will be true to myself with this, always. Because I think if I love what I do, I will always transmit that love to people, and thus there will be people who will love it as well. Maybe not now...maybe not tomorrow...but in the future. I hope, a near future.

A tablet's agony

In these days I've been working because, even if I've been on vacation from the school these two weeks. It was still a bit of a busy time, cos I had some work that I needed to finish so I can have money for my next scholar cycle.

I have a lot of plans for artistic projects, from ideas I had when I was still in the school but because of my works of school I wasn't able to do.  But now I'm a bit uspet because my tablet doesn't work.
Just some days ago I was working, while I was thinking about why my tablet didn't work anymore since like a year ago, and that I wanted to make a drawing.
That's when I suddenly thought that maybe my computer (as it was formatted and also I left the CD of the tablet at home) lacked of the drivers, so I went to the Wacom website and I dowloaded and insalled the drivers for my tablet, et voilà! When I plugged the tablet cable the pointer started to move, it worked, even if the USB input was a little loose. So I got excited...but the happiness about that didn't last because it was just for a day; the next day it started to fail, then the pen didn't move at all. So now I have no tablet!

"Why don't you draw on paper?" you would say...but the weirdest thing it's I tried to draw in paper but I just...I simply didn't feel like that XD
I think that drawing too much in tablet when it worked well have made me feel that drawing in paper its a bit odd, it's like when I drawing I want to cut parts of my lines and move them a bit and paste them in another place, like I do in the computer XD

Sometimes the tablet works for a while, from time to time, but I think at some point it will end up not working at all. And soon I'll be without a tablet....I hope not so soon though...

Some thoughts about comics

Bonjour tout le monde! Howdy?

I hope you're spending a good week folks!

This is a journal I wrote on dA but when I wrote it there, it didn't get any comments from anybody. It was something I wrote from my heart (as I always do when I write) about my experiencies of last year 2015 and the first months of this one, when looking for good comics to read and follow to get inspiration for doing my own. So I felt a bit bad when no one commented....

I post it here now, cos I think maybe some people who have an account in blogger would like to comment about the subject :)

So here, this was riginally written on Thusday Mar 24, 2016.  And you can see the link HERE

As some of you who watch me know, some days ago I commented I was going to start my first web comic this year.
But, Franckly, I must say that in these days I've been working at school I haven't feel much in the mood to draw something new.
Probably due some of the stuff happened last year that was a bit dissapointed...Or probably cos I've had lots of stuff to do for my collegue is the reason why I don't feel like drawing more, since I'm exhausted of making designs and illustrations for my homework.  And as I've noticed, drawing for homework isn't like drawing for your own amusement...Sometimes it gets fun, but it feels like a duty most of the times XD

So About the comics?...
Well, I thought I was going to do them...but I'm not sure now...
At least right now I don't feel like I have the inspiration to do it, and one of my friends commented me that he thinks making comics will not help me to make my art well known....
Which now I think about it...and I think he's got a good point. And maybe he's right, and making a comic will not make my art be recognized...
But is funny, another friend I talked about a year ago (cos making comics is something I've been thinking for years XD not just now) encouraged me to make comics saying that what I needed for my art to be recognized as I would like, was precisely to start making a webcomic!
So is weird XD I guess is cos everybody has a different perspective of the same suject. As in mexico we say "Every head is a world" *chuckles*

However, my friends have made me re-think all this. And I've started to question myself in these weeks if I'm ready...if I'm good enough to make good comics.
Specially because I feel my stories need a lot of work and aren't not very well constructed yet, so to speak. Also, I feel I need more knowledge on how to make comic pannels and how to express scenes in comics.

So what I've been doing have been to look for comics and read them. To get references about how to make comic pannels and dialogues in the best way, one that is understandable.  Also I'm looking for onomatopeias I might need. And also to get knowledge, reference and inspiration to make my own comics.
Because, all my life I've made comics..but I always liked a lot more to make them than read them. XD
And now I realize that probably I haven't read enough comics to know about comics and how to make a good one.

In this search of knowledge I've found a lot of very awful comics, though...

Lots of vulgar or gross ones, or comics with a not very nice to the eyes style of drawing. (aka. a gross drawing style) And I think that's what have "poisoned me" temporarily, so to speak.
Also I've been dissapointed because the very few comics I've got to find that I think are great...are comics I can't finish reading since I need to pay for them, and right now I have no money for that, and neither a credit card.

I've read a couple of good comics for free that I've liked, but most of them start good and then end in a sad or gross or vulgar or weird way..most of them, I don't think I'd like to talk about them right now...
Talking about the bad comics I've read..is not a pleasant thing to talk about...Not at all. =P
Let's just say, that in my search of knowledge about comics, I've been entered by accident on pages of webcomics I wouldn't like to talk about, and I will never want to enter or read anything about them again. EVER.

But, For example, I've recently found by chance one comic (that I'm not going to name, at least right now I would like to reserve that for myself ) that was a romance/love story of a girl and a robot, settled on the victorian age. I found the synopsis of it on an article that was supossedly about "the best webcomics ever made". And it called my attention cos victorian age is one of my favorite ages for stories. So "I gave it an eye" as we would say in mexico.

The artwork wasn't the most realistic I've seen, something that is usually necessary in this type of comics, but sadly not much people care of.
But even so, the cartoon style of it wasn't bad to look at..It was nice actually.
Also, the plot was witty, the story was original and believable, the characters were good.

But a bit after the first chapters completed...It seemed to start again the same story but backwards! O_O
I think the first story should have been the end, because after the first one the comic continued, and it became so weird and just silly and nonesense....And it happened that it was a april fool's joke...thanks goodness! For a moment I thought it was going to ruin the story for me.

And after that the girl made a prequel to the first story, but I didn't wanted to continue reading to know how it was going to be.
Maybe because a friend of mine told me that on this genre of comics, people usually start well, and later they
became crazy and their comics get ruined...
I think probably so much stimulous on their minds when making said comics is too much for them to control. 
I don't know...but In short, in part I didn't kept reading cos feared to be dissapointed by an awful or too sad story...
In part I stopped reading because the stuff became repetitive and, as there was no dialogues, nor very expressive facial expressions (which are a very important part of this kind of comics!) well, it seemed to me some scenes were too repetitive. It was the same thing but with other characters. So I got bored.
Also, it was too much to process for my mind for one day. Comics like these makes one's mind exhausted.

But again, I'm not sure why I arrived to read that one XD
Although I must say I talk about this one because, actually it was very nice. The story was interesting and the end was very heartwarming. I was one of the nicest comics on this class I've seen so far.
Along with other that features mass effect character's love story, too.
Usually I don't like love or sexy stories, so I don't read them nor look for them.
But in these times I've been feel lonely..I feel weak and fragile, and hopeless (some of you know why) and in these cases love stories that end in a heartwarming way are good for the heart :)
Also, is funny. I think what I appreciate about this comic, is that it have made me feel better with myself because this comic has no dialogues, and the facial expressions aren't like super well made, but even so, you can understand the story and it conveys emotions!  I think that's cool! 
I found it by chance looking for other thing completely different I was just looking for a steampunk comic.
But today I'm thankful with God I found it though, even if it wasn't much what I excepted. Cos to find a good comic (at least the first story I read and I'm talking of) I had to look and look for days and months for it and go through some gross and disgusting stuff...that it was not nice at all!

I'm not sure if the comic I would like to make was one of this genre, though...
Although there are not much good comics of this genre, so it might be true what my friend said, that most people in this field are...well....they have become crazy...
And end making comics with what people wanna see just because is stuff that is popular. And thus their comics tend to be come more and more dumb and nonesense with the time.
Because they don't make comics to their heart's content, but to what is popular among people who aren't even sure of what they want! And it feels to me like they sell their soul just to gain some popularity.

I've been taking my time to look and read comics from all the genres I've been ever felt interested on making comics of. Even if is just a part or a couple of pages of the because, as I said, most of the good ones I've found need money.
I've seen who's my competition on all the comic genres I've been interested on picking...and it worries me...For many reasons.

I'm not sure if I will be good enough to make comics...
I'm not sure if people will enjoy my ideas...because most of them are not what's popular in nowadays...but I'm not in most of the things that I've seen they are popular and beloved by millions.
And I'm pretty darn sure I'll always make my comics to my heart's content! So I'm afraid that if I don't sell my soul like the others...my art will never be recognized and I'll never become a cartoonist...

Plus! I've had physical trouble that avoids me to draw for months. As I said before too, I think one of my teeth has a problem cos hurts. And my tablet's pen is too loose and the cursor moves like if I'm in a earthquake having parkinson! And that makes me feel exhasperated very quicky when I try to draw, and so frustrated.
And I think I try to blame the problem I've got with the tablet for the problem I'm having trying to draw facial expressions...cos I don't want to accept that probably I have got rusty on this cos it's been a good while I don't practice...

Alors en fin, I think a comic from me will have to wait..a while at least.

Is a bit funny my fear of failing as a web comicker...since I've made comics for a long time, almost all my life, but just for fun, I never published anything. The only ones who saw some of my comics were my siblings when they and I were kids, and when I was teen and they were kids.
And is not the same to draw comics for my siblings and me just for fun, than to draw comics for a wide range of public.

As I said, I've been seen other comics and I feel I still have a lot to learn..and a lot to polish my artwork, I need to practice facial expressions a lot more cos they are (and always have been) the most important part of my art! Also, my stories because they seem to have a few of the so called "plot holes". And I don't know anybody who would like to help me to fix those "plot holes.

Well, meanwhile I think you can enjoy a couple of thoughts from me about comics, and share your opinions about your favorite comics.
Please, share your thoughts about comics, I would like to hear all that! :D
If you have read the comics I mention in this post, please feel free to share your thoughts. I would love to hear that as well.
Just don't mention the comic I mentioned here by name, if you want to mention it by name sent me a note. Since I'd like to reserve it for personal reasons...and I think you will too ;)