Fear of the failure?...

Hiya there folks! How have you been?

I haven't had much time to post artwork in these times, cos I've been doing some big projects on the school and they demand me a lot of effort and time. So I haven't had the time to draw for personal projects. 

I've given me a bit of time to surf the net some days ago, looking for ggood webcomics for reference and inpon how to make a comic. Also to check what are the most popular webcomics on these days. 

But what I found..it kinda dissapointed me...

Cos with that search I've realized that the most popular ones are usually the comics that have sexual stuff in them, weird porn stuff stuff like sadomasochism and vore, homosexual (lesbian/gay) comics, or comics with gross out humor...

Or comics where people make fun of characters for being intelligent and kind and transmit the message that intelligent and kindhearted characters are loosers, while mean and dumb characters are "cool and amazing". 

In short, I haven't found many actually cool and fun webcomics...hardly only one or two in the sea of webcomics.

Meanwhile, I see how they phraise sunstone like if it was the eight wonder of the world! I see people phraising furboz and garabatoz comics...I see how they play Jollyjack, for giving you some examples.

...I see how people phraise porn over and over and over!

Of course, I don't judge people who like lesbian or gay stuff, gross out humor stuff, or erotic comics, or comics with sexual innuendos or vulgarities or comics with lots of swear words just for the sake of saying swear words.

I don't agree with them of course, but I've always thought there should be a variety of comics for everybody, and everybody has the right to have their own tastes.

Is just that...Now I've seen the comics that would be my direct competence in the webcomic field, in the case I make comics, and I realize with terror that I'm not into any of those themes!!....and that's what makes me afraid...

I'm afraid that people ...that they don't like my ideas...

Not the art itself, because I know my art is good, but I fear people hate the ideas I have and I'd like to make comics of. And that nobody ever comes to read my comics.

..I fear of that kind of failure.

..But in the other hand, I cannot make a comic about themes that are popular, just because they are so popular. Because I'm not into that, and thus, even if I tried, that wouldn't come from my heart! And it would be a disaster.

Plus, if I do this...surely it would be selling my soul to the devil. And I'd not be in peace anymore.

So..I don't know...Discovering that terrified me... I feel like running away and hidding, and not to think about making comics again ...=P

I feel like I want to keep my ideas for myself and and......give up?....

You know..Most of the artist I admire and who make comics, I admire them and their comics because their comics have themes that are probably not the most popular ones.

But they don't do comics about sujects just because they are popular. At contraire! They decided to do their work truely from their heart's content!! :D And this is what makes them be awesome!!!

Because they share a bit of their your life experiences, what they like, what they dream! A part of themselves!

And that's what I would love to do! And even so I fear of what will happen if my ideas aren't well received...I will still do it! :D

I will face my fear and I'll risk to the failure.

Because I know, that if I get good results with this, it will worth the effort and the risk!

Also, there are a lot of other comics that have been sucessful and are still loved by millions. Comics about adventure and action, or fantasy or sci fi, comics about frienship.

Llike tin-tin, asterix and obelix, or Lou! Some of my all-time favorite comics.

So I think if there's an space for comics with stuff I like, and people loves them...why there shouldn't be a place for my comics too!