Some thoughts about comics

Bonjour tout le monde! Howdy?

I hope you're spending a good week folks!

This is a journal I wrote on dA but when I wrote it there, it didn't get any comments from anybody. It was something I wrote from my heart (as I always do when I write) about my experiencies of last year 2015 and the first months of this one, when looking for good comics to read and follow to get inspiration for doing my own. So I felt a bit bad when no one commented....

I post it here now, cos I think maybe some people who have an account in blogger would like to comment about the subject :)

So here, this was riginally written on Thusday Mar 24, 2016.  And you can see the link HERE

As some of you who watch me know, some days ago I commented I was going to start my first web comic this year.
But, Franckly, I must say that in these days I've been working at school I haven't feel much in the mood to draw something new.
Probably due some of the stuff happened last year that was a bit dissapointed...Or probably cos I've had lots of stuff to do for my collegue is the reason why I don't feel like drawing more, since I'm exhausted of making designs and illustrations for my homework.  And as I've noticed, drawing for homework isn't like drawing for your own amusement...Sometimes it gets fun, but it feels like a duty most of the times XD

So About the comics?...
Well, I thought I was going to do them...but I'm not sure now...
At least right now I don't feel like I have the inspiration to do it, and one of my friends commented me that he thinks making comics will not help me to make my art well known....
Which now I think about it...and I think he's got a good point. And maybe he's right, and making a comic will not make my art be recognized...
But is funny, another friend I talked about a year ago (cos making comics is something I've been thinking for years XD not just now) encouraged me to make comics saying that what I needed for my art to be recognized as I would like, was precisely to start making a webcomic!
So is weird XD I guess is cos everybody has a different perspective of the same suject. As in mexico we say "Every head is a world" *chuckles*

However, my friends have made me re-think all this. And I've started to question myself in these weeks if I'm ready...if I'm good enough to make good comics.
Specially because I feel my stories need a lot of work and aren't not very well constructed yet, so to speak. Also, I feel I need more knowledge on how to make comic pannels and how to express scenes in comics.

So what I've been doing have been to look for comics and read them. To get references about how to make comic pannels and dialogues in the best way, one that is understandable.  Also I'm looking for onomatopeias I might need. And also to get knowledge, reference and inspiration to make my own comics.
Because, all my life I've made comics..but I always liked a lot more to make them than read them. XD
And now I realize that probably I haven't read enough comics to know about comics and how to make a good one.

In this search of knowledge I've found a lot of very awful comics, though...

Lots of vulgar or gross ones, or comics with a not very nice to the eyes style of drawing. (aka. a gross drawing style) And I think that's what have "poisoned me" temporarily, so to speak.
Also I've been dissapointed because the very few comics I've got to find that I think are great...are comics I can't finish reading since I need to pay for them, and right now I have no money for that, and neither a credit card.

I've read a couple of good comics for free that I've liked, but most of them start good and then end in a sad or gross or vulgar or weird way..most of them, I don't think I'd like to talk about them right now...
Talking about the bad comics I've read..is not a pleasant thing to talk about...Not at all. =P
Let's just say, that in my search of knowledge about comics, I've been entered by accident on pages of webcomics I wouldn't like to talk about, and I will never want to enter or read anything about them again. EVER.

But, For example, I've recently found by chance one comic (that I'm not going to name, at least right now I would like to reserve that for myself ) that was a romance/love story of a girl and a robot, settled on the victorian age. I found the synopsis of it on an article that was supossedly about "the best webcomics ever made". And it called my attention cos victorian age is one of my favorite ages for stories. So "I gave it an eye" as we would say in mexico.

The artwork wasn't the most realistic I've seen, something that is usually necessary in this type of comics, but sadly not much people care of.
But even so, the cartoon style of it wasn't bad to look at..It was nice actually.
Also, the plot was witty, the story was original and believable, the characters were good.

But a bit after the first chapters completed...It seemed to start again the same story but backwards! O_O
I think the first story should have been the end, because after the first one the comic continued, and it became so weird and just silly and nonesense....And it happened that it was a april fool's joke...thanks goodness! For a moment I thought it was going to ruin the story for me.

And after that the girl made a prequel to the first story, but I didn't wanted to continue reading to know how it was going to be.
Maybe because a friend of mine told me that on this genre of comics, people usually start well, and later they
became crazy and their comics get ruined...
I think probably so much stimulous on their minds when making said comics is too much for them to control. 
I don't know...but In short, in part I didn't kept reading cos feared to be dissapointed by an awful or too sad story...
In part I stopped reading because the stuff became repetitive and, as there was no dialogues, nor very expressive facial expressions (which are a very important part of this kind of comics!) well, it seemed to me some scenes were too repetitive. It was the same thing but with other characters. So I got bored.
Also, it was too much to process for my mind for one day. Comics like these makes one's mind exhausted.

But again, I'm not sure why I arrived to read that one XD
Although I must say I talk about this one because, actually it was very nice. The story was interesting and the end was very heartwarming. I was one of the nicest comics on this class I've seen so far.
Along with other that features mass effect character's love story, too.
Usually I don't like love or sexy stories, so I don't read them nor look for them.
But in these times I've been feel lonely..I feel weak and fragile, and hopeless (some of you know why) and in these cases love stories that end in a heartwarming way are good for the heart :)
Also, is funny. I think what I appreciate about this comic, is that it have made me feel better with myself because this comic has no dialogues, and the facial expressions aren't like super well made, but even so, you can understand the story and it conveys emotions!  I think that's cool! 
I found it by chance looking for other thing completely different I was just looking for a steampunk comic.
But today I'm thankful with God I found it though, even if it wasn't much what I excepted. Cos to find a good comic (at least the first story I read and I'm talking of) I had to look and look for days and months for it and go through some gross and disgusting stuff...that it was not nice at all!

I'm not sure if the comic I would like to make was one of this genre, though...
Although there are not much good comics of this genre, so it might be true what my friend said, that most people in this field are...well....they have become crazy...
And end making comics with what people wanna see just because is stuff that is popular. And thus their comics tend to be come more and more dumb and nonesense with the time.
Because they don't make comics to their heart's content, but to what is popular among people who aren't even sure of what they want! And it feels to me like they sell their soul just to gain some popularity.

I've been taking my time to look and read comics from all the genres I've been ever felt interested on making comics of. Even if is just a part or a couple of pages of the because, as I said, most of the good ones I've found need money.
I've seen who's my competition on all the comic genres I've been interested on picking...and it worries me...For many reasons.

I'm not sure if I will be good enough to make comics...
I'm not sure if people will enjoy my ideas...because most of them are not what's popular in nowadays...but I'm not in most of the things that I've seen they are popular and beloved by millions.
And I'm pretty darn sure I'll always make my comics to my heart's content! So I'm afraid that if I don't sell my soul like the others...my art will never be recognized and I'll never become a cartoonist...

Plus! I've had physical trouble that avoids me to draw for months. As I said before too, I think one of my teeth has a problem cos hurts. And my tablet's pen is too loose and the cursor moves like if I'm in a earthquake having parkinson! And that makes me feel exhasperated very quicky when I try to draw, and so frustrated.
And I think I try to blame the problem I've got with the tablet for the problem I'm having trying to draw facial expressions...cos I don't want to accept that probably I have got rusty on this cos it's been a good while I don't practice...

Alors en fin, I think a comic from me will have to wait..a while at least.

Is a bit funny my fear of failing as a web comicker...since I've made comics for a long time, almost all my life, but just for fun, I never published anything. The only ones who saw some of my comics were my siblings when they and I were kids, and when I was teen and they were kids.
And is not the same to draw comics for my siblings and me just for fun, than to draw comics for a wide range of public.

As I said, I've been seen other comics and I feel I still have a lot to learn..and a lot to polish my artwork, I need to practice facial expressions a lot more cos they are (and always have been) the most important part of my art! Also, my stories because they seem to have a few of the so called "plot holes". And I don't know anybody who would like to help me to fix those "plot holes.

Well, meanwhile I think you can enjoy a couple of thoughts from me about comics, and share your opinions about your favorite comics.
Please, share your thoughts about comics, I would like to hear all that! :D
If you have read the comics I mention in this post, please feel free to share your thoughts. I would love to hear that as well.
Just don't mention the comic I mentioned here by name, if you want to mention it by name sent me a note. Since I'd like to reserve it for personal reasons...and I think you will too ;)

Fear of the failure?...

Hiya there folks! How have you been?

I haven't had much time to post artwork in these times, cos I've been doing some big projects on the school and they demand me a lot of effort and time. So I haven't had the time to draw for personal projects. 

I've given me a bit of time to surf the net some days ago, looking for ggood webcomics for reference and inpon how to make a comic. Also to check what are the most popular webcomics on these days. 

But what I found..it kinda dissapointed me...

Cos with that search I've realized that the most popular ones are usually the comics that have sexual stuff in them, weird porn stuff stuff like sadomasochism and vore, homosexual (lesbian/gay) comics, or comics with gross out humor...

Or comics where people make fun of characters for being intelligent and kind and transmit the message that intelligent and kindhearted characters are loosers, while mean and dumb characters are "cool and amazing". 

In short, I haven't found many actually cool and fun webcomics...hardly only one or two in the sea of webcomics.

Meanwhile, I see how they phraise sunstone like if it was the eight wonder of the world! I see people phraising furboz and garabatoz comics...I see how they play Jollyjack, for giving you some examples.

...I see how people phraise porn over and over and over!

Of course, I don't judge people who like lesbian or gay stuff, gross out humor stuff, or erotic comics, or comics with sexual innuendos or vulgarities or comics with lots of swear words just for the sake of saying swear words.

I don't agree with them of course, but I've always thought there should be a variety of comics for everybody, and everybody has the right to have their own tastes.

Is just that...Now I've seen the comics that would be my direct competence in the webcomic field, in the case I make comics, and I realize with terror that I'm not into any of those themes!!....and that's what makes me afraid...

I'm afraid that people ...that they don't like my ideas...

Not the art itself, because I know my art is good, but I fear people hate the ideas I have and I'd like to make comics of. And that nobody ever comes to read my comics.

..I fear of that kind of failure.

..But in the other hand, I cannot make a comic about themes that are popular, just because they are so popular. Because I'm not into that, and thus, even if I tried, that wouldn't come from my heart! And it would be a disaster.

Plus, if I do this...surely it would be selling my soul to the devil. And I'd not be in peace anymore.

So..I don't know...Discovering that terrified me... I feel like running away and hidding, and not to think about making comics again ...=P

I feel like I want to keep my ideas for myself and and......give up?....

You know..Most of the artist I admire and who make comics, I admire them and their comics because their comics have themes that are probably not the most popular ones.

But they don't do comics about sujects just because they are popular. At contraire! They decided to do their work truely from their heart's content!! :D And this is what makes them be awesome!!!

Because they share a bit of their your life experiences, what they like, what they dream! A part of themselves!

And that's what I would love to do! And even so I fear of what will happen if my ideas aren't well received...I will still do it! :D

I will face my fear and I'll risk to the failure.

Because I know, that if I get good results with this, it will worth the effort and the risk!

Also, there are a lot of other comics that have been sucessful and are still loved by millions. Comics about adventure and action, or fantasy or sci fi, comics about frienship.

Llike tin-tin, asterix and obelix, or Lou! Some of my all-time favorite comics.

So I think if there's an space for comics with stuff I like, and people loves them...why there shouldn't be a place for my comics too!

Incoming comics

Like scenic panic, there should be a name for the fear of releasing comics and totally fail on it. I think there should be a name for that, cos I have that now and I need to name it! 

XD
Fortunately, I have a way to get rid of it; Joking about it...and my dear friend Faik's help of course! 
Because I've always thought that the best thing to face fear is...to joke about it! Cos that way you feel the fear becomes smaller, and not so intimidant. 

It happened that a a couple of friends of mine have been encouraging me to make a comic last year (well, since a good while more XD) and specially one of them have told me that doing a webcomic would for sure make my artwork being well known. And I would really like to be a well known artist so people can ask me comissions, since I need the money for my college.
So, despite the fear, I think that this year I'll try to venture on the amazing (and scary ) world of webcomics.
Finally, after 3 years of hard work on character design and plot and all that stuff (most of that time working hard to fix the so called "plot holes" every story has) I already have 3 histories ready to be told on a comic, and I probably will release one of them this 2016.

But since I can decide which one of them deserves better my attention. I will need your help folks!
Soon, I'll post a journal about it...well when I can have more time,  talking about these stories a bit, so you can opine and help me to decide.

Meanwhile enjoy this little doodle of me making fun of my fear and take care!

French inspired Ballerina

Bonjour!

As I said in my entry French Inspiration  this cuatri is getting busier and busier, and I haven't had time for personal projects or for writting here. And that I just get a chance to draw when one of my teachers arrives late to school. But you know what? One of my teachers is getting used to come a bit late to his class from time to time, so, one of these times I took the chance to draw this.

Something funny about this, is the fact that I have never drawn a ballerina, since I don't really like ballet very much. And I don't like it cos ballet is something that is not natural for the human body, and causes severe damage on the feet of who practices it.
Without mentioning that the ballet industry forces girls to be extra tin to dance it, and then that's why the girls get in diets that are not healty and some of them even start to smoke to achieve that excesively and dangerously tin figure.

Leaving that aside, I just wanted to practice poses at the day I drew this, and to practice that effect of movement too. And I just thought a ballet pose would help me to do this, because ballerinas have a graceful movement.

This time (as the tittle says) like in my entry "French inspiration", I also felt inspired on famous cartoonish and comickers who have worked on my favorite shows or comics in french, specially for the face part, and the legs.
Comics and cartoons like Les contes de la rue broca, Il etait une fois...la vie, Lou, Les Aventures de Tintin et Milou.

Also, this time I felt inspired by the amazing and beautiful art style of David Gilson's comic, Bichon. His work is terrific! I hope one day (soon I hope) I can finish the article I'm doing to talk about his work.
I also hope he sees my work and he likes it, at least a bit, because I admire him a lot!

I mentioned the names of  the shows/comics instead of artists (except for David Gilson because I've seen lots of people know him) cos I felt if I said "Albert barilée" "Georges Remi" "Julien Neel", then you probably wouldn't imagine what kind of artstyle I'm talking of.
I've mentioned these names with my friends and they confessed to have no idea of what I was talking about! XD So that's why.

Referring about the "technique and materials used", this it was made with a black gel  pen and markers.
Usually I leave my markers at home cos to carry them everywhere is impossible, since I have lots of other things on then bag I use to go to college. But at that day I had my markers with me because I packed them cos I was going to use them for a work at the classroom.
 
Sorry about the quality of the photo but as my scanner doesn't work, I took a photo. I hope you enjoy the drawing anyways! And I hope to fix my scanner soon so I can give you a better quality of my work.

Sketches of past years.

I've been cleaning my dA page and I've realized that there are so many sketches of past years I have there and nobdoy have seen were just occuping an space in my dA gallery.

At first I thought on throwing them off to the recycle bin, because people don't see them on dA. Yet..I love all my drawings, I don't want to throw them up.

So I though, why not to pass those sketchs here, so you can still see them (for the ones who like to see artist's sketches) and so I don't need to throw them out. So here are them! Hope you enjoy seeing them!

Another comic Pin - Allouette

 Made on July 19, 2013.

Sketches of comic panels I doodled just before I start cooking. I am in a rush now, I was at work then I went to see the colleges, but I just wanted to do these sketches and post them somewhere so I don't forget this idea, it's like a pin XD....But someday I could be able to finish a comic?! Only time will tell...

I'm not sure if I'll ever finish it, it looks nothing like I was imaginging it but one thing is sure....I need lots of practice to draw birds oh my! XD

 

What I tried to do here was to draw Toothless, but at the end I ended up doing just a dragon. I think it was a nice one, though

Faikel and a Who

An sketch I made a saturday, Jul 14, 2012. I just had an idea of these 2 singing together cos I was listening to a song I found at that time.

I'm not sure if I'm going to do some painting in the future with this sketch, I've been lacking of inspiration and self-confidence since something that happened and I explained in my pic "what I did do wrong"  But I'm sure very soon the inspiration will come back.

 I'll not pressure things though. Plus, drawing doodles it's always fun *chuckles*

Sorry for the so brief description, I haven't had much time to come here and post my art, but you bet I've drawn good stuff and I'll post it as soon as I can have the time.

I was very stressed when I did this one, it helped me to write along with posting the drawing so here's what I wrote that was originally on dA.

"I have had much work in these weeks, so I haven't drawn anything O_O Also I had a bit of a bad day cos today nobody had keys of the house and we all went out, and my dad was bothered for that. But the worse thing was that we waited like half an hour so someone come to unlock the door. XD
But now I come to have a bit more time, today.

 So, I guess..... this is officially the first drawing of August. This is the first sketch I made today, apart of drawing for a comission, but it's sooo rough XD....should I be ashamed of it because it is a rough sketch?! *chuckles*
....no I'm NOT ashamed, no matter what the groups of "super high tech eleborated paintings" on dA say! I'm rather proud of this because, being able to do a pose like this it's very exciting and rewarding!  And I love my drawings! No matter they don't accept me in their groups!
Well, I was just practicing sitting poses here, because I have rarely drawn them, so I wanted to give them a try. Here it's Faik supposing to be sitting on a roof, looking at the starts. At first this was going to be a sad pic like him in looking for some comfort on the starts to not feel that bad, because I felt a bit sad and hopeless, and I usually transmit my emotions of the moment on the draw I do on those moements *chuckles*, but the drawing came out so good and I had much fun doing it, that he turned into a not so sad drawing, here he's rather inquisitive and amazed.

Pose estudy.

I hope the pose it's well drawn...it looks to me pretty good for the first time I draw this kind of pose at least .D I think the one with the head up came out bettter.... And bless the people here who make poses photos for reference of the artists! Because I took reference for this pose on this one
I think I'm liking very much to try new poses and perspectives and drawing sketches like this! It's really great cos I'm getting so much relax and inspiration from this! I think taking a break from drawing too elaborated paintings was the best thing I've done!
OH! Also as a note, it's the first time that I draw faikel (or any other character XD) On shirt of this style.
By the way, today we released Tor Tuga,  the turtle that we found some days ago, on some land where there was no constructions or anything. And it was both, funny and cute, cos Tor was so amazed of seeing all the plants and nature of a new place that just kept looking on the side to another."

Faikel heads study and cornelius.

Merfolks

Girl In purple I made with pastel colors.

Faik and Atrix dancing.

Faikel with rain coat.

Faikel with Scooter.

French inspiration!

Bonjour le monde! How you're doing?

I've been a bit busy with my school works, the year has started with a lot of movement. 

I think I would like to apologize for not coming to write on the blog in a good good while. Also, and most important I think...I sincerely apologize por not making yet "Thanks for another year of adveture" of this 2016 as is the tradition. But don't, I promise you I'll make it as soon as I can have the opportunity! God will I hope I'll not have to do it on the end of the year.

So sorry really! I've had some busy time at school, this "cuatri" have been very hard to manage, even more than usual, because of the tons of works that are complex and take much time. Is the first time our teacher is asking the class to do an animation that can last more than 1 minute, and is a long long time for an animation! I talked with a dear friend who knows about this the other day about it, and she said that 2 mintues of animation is so much for making it on only 4 months. To put things in perspective , she told me that for making a 2-3 mintues animation she took 8 months. Do you imagine it? So that's we I have to work a lot!
Specially because I suspect I will do my own animation all alone, cos the few classmates who like to work well were completed, and didn't include me on their team. And the ones who don't care about school and don't like to work...they are avaliable but, sorry, but I don't want them on my team.
In fact, I tried to work with one of my classmates, because he was lonely and he wanted an opportunity "to show he could do better" as he told me when the teacher left us this project. But is the end of January already and he haven't done anything to help me with the project! I hope to have chance to tell you what's the project about later.

In this 5th cuatri (5th cycle of the career) as you can imagine, I haven't had time to draw. Well, except when one of my teachers arrives late to one class, is one of the rare times I have the time. I feel bad to leave the blog alone so much time, though.

So, today I come quickly, or like we would say in mexico "como de rayo" to present this, a drawing I did on the time when my teachers of "impresiones y acabados" came late to her class.

So, here's faikel in what I would call a "French inspiration" drawing! :D
I had the idea to do this one because one of our teacher has been putting on her class those videos of the show that was translated in mexico as "los inventores" ( originally called "Il etait une fois...Les Découvreur"") which is s a french show, part of the cartoon series of Albert Barilée. His series have been some of my favorites, specially "Once upon a time life".
 Also the other day I arrived from the school and nobody was home. I was doing my homework but I had no ideas for one project, so I turned on the tv on (sometimes I get to get rid of the stress and relax a bit when watching someone on tv and doing work at the same time) and I saw by chance an end of another french cartoon, one called Spirous and Fantasio, and I liked the cartoon style of it. So I took inspiration from it to do this one as well.

Later, I looked up for spirou and fantasio stuff since I was curious, and I found just a couple of strips of the comics and I thought they were funny.
Also I watched an episode of the cartoon that was about a virus, and the characters avoiding them to be released. And I think it was good as well. I liked it at first glance because of the theme that is "detective-ish", about solving misteries and stuff.  But I think what I liked the most is the dynamics of the relationship about Spirou and fantasio; I think is funny how Fantasio can be very sarcastic and satiric sometimes when talking to Spirou. Also I like how they have had different ideas and sometimes they can arge, but they don't leave that to ruin their frienship.
Although, I don't know much about the cartoon or the comics as to talk much about them right now....
So I think I shouldn't dare to do it hehe, so, let's just enjoy the drawing :D

Nostalgia in Christmas times.

Hi folks, hope you're spending a good time in these holidays!
And specially, I hope this subject I'm about to talk doesn't reach you this year, And in the case it does it does, I hope you read this article, and it can help you kick the bad feeling out.  :)

What I'm talking about?Ah it's a feeling of sadness or/and frustration that apprears in these times in many people's hearts. Some people like to call it call "Christmas nostalgia" or "Christmas melancholy", but I've decided to call "The end of the year Nostalgia" cos it's more specific and  I think it fits more, since this feeling doesn't have to do with Christmas, but as I've realized, it's actually caused by some other reasons.

It happens because...

When I was younger, I've heard some scientist talk about it, that many people feel melancholy or nostalgia for the past times. It was something strange and distant for me for many time, but this December....I'm feeling I'm probably one of these people, and it got me in less extend...not too hard but it is still there. So I think now I am capable to talk about it, and maybe if I'm lucky, to try and find a solution for it.

Cos tech insolates people sometimes.

Now I think about it...I believe I discovered why people sometimes get this feeling; it's in part because many people of today use technology to insolate from the others than to get close! 

Playing with their cellphones and computers when having the other members of their family near them, It's what we in mexico call "being zombies".And the few ones left who aren't slaves of the tech and use it well, still wanna have some nice and fun moments with their families so they feel a bit lonely.

I'm one of those who are included on this reason. Sometimes, I wish someday somehow the internet and tv would stop functioning for a day, so families could re-discover themselves and what's to be together and hang out together. How fun it is to sing along, to play a board game, to read a book in family or talking about what have happened in the year.

Because things change, and sometimes not for better.

How fun would be to sing along, to play a board game, to read a book in family or talking about what have happened in the year. How fun it would be to go to the park with my family in bike, or to go to the beach to make a pic-nic, just like me and my family used to do on Saturday or Sunday in the 90's! How amazing it would be to turn on the tv in the afternoon and watch all my favorite series, the ones I used to watch and love when I was a kid and a teen!!
But as one o my teachers said, young people on today are lazy and the "interests" and tastes change while the people grow up, so my siblings no longer like to go to the beach or park, they prefer to stay all the day on the computer playing videogames or watching tv.
And a looooot of other things! There's lots of things my family and me used to do together and I loved, that I no longer do since years ago. Cos usually the things do change with time...and usually it's not for better.

Because you feel you're older and you've achieved nothing.

But I think the other reason why most of people get this melancholy in the end of the year, it's because, like me, most of people feel that the majority of the things they planned to do this year that it's ending, didn't become a reality, for this or that other reason. 

In the case of some people, they get this feeling cos they are a year older and haven't got a place to live or a car,  to find love or doing excercise to loss weight or some other things,

For example in my case the end of this year means mainly;

that I'm getting old and I haven't found a true love yet. No comic finished, not even a short comic strip! No book finished (or even started a good amount of it!) and just another year of "swiming against the current of the river"; of hearing people where I live saying that artwork must only be a hobbie that you would care about, and "nobody else will like other than you", that's something trivial and silly and you wouldn't never earn a life with it. 

And to make things worse, I come back to my town from my time in College, I come back home just to find out that most of my drawings are now in the trash, or they are ruined because of the rain of the past months, just because nobody ever took care of saving them and storing them safely when I was in the  school. 

My mom and day say "it's not a big problem you still have your hands you can make more" "you can make more", and my sister says that "Only the autor should care about their art". 

Yeah right!...true this merits more than just a roll of eyes. It's all nonesense! no matter of what side you try see these ideas. It seems they think that when you make a piece of art, you're a printer machine that can re-make exactly the same thing over and over. That art is not something that comes from your soul and express your emotions, your thoughts your fears your dreams, your perspective of the people and the world arround you....your soul! 

And to add water to my storm, that it's already bad, I've been feeling that the characters and stories I've been developing with effort and dedication all this year are stuck, for a reason I don't know.

Yeah stuck! And when this happens I start to think it might be because a lack of imagination or creativity. Even if later I realize it's not true actually, sometimes it feels so.

From time to time I feel nostalgia because when I was younger, specifically when I was a little kid, it was a lot easier for me to make characters and stories...and I didn't know why that hability of dreaming...kinda faded a bit with time...

And all the time, I feel like a rock being battered by waves; with every time people try to break my spirit and change my opinion about art being an important part for human kind, a bit of myself erodes...and the dreams I still have but haven't become true, still persuit me and make me feel frustated every end of the year!

But there's some cure!

Why yes, I've found some cure for this feeling!

Accept the things that changed, by thinking of the positive.

Accepting things are changing requires a lot of courage, but it's a lot easier when you struggle to see "the big picture". So I recommend to try to think on the positive things that your actual situation has, for example in my case; 

I realize that since a long time we don't go together to the park because anybody has interest on it, but now I can use this time for myself; to make me a pedicure, to draw or paint, or to go walk by myself and have a time to relax and feel the breeze on my eyes, without being worry of getting back home to an specific schedule cos my parents needed to come back to work, or my siblings needed to come back home to do homework, or stuff like that. Also now I wouldn't be able to go to the park or beach anyways, cos I have homework to do and also the work from the office.

And other example, referring to the shows or movies I used to watch when I was a kid and were cancelled some time ago; of course, I'll miss them, but in nowadays you can get a couple of good cartoon series of the 90's in forums or pages of cartoon shows, and I'll keep looking until I find mine. For example, I've found last year the movie "once Upon a Forest" in mexican dubbing, a movie I've been looking for years and I thought it was impossible to find. So nothing is impossible, just keep looking folks! :)

I know there's not much consuel on this at first, because you inevitably will always miss the times when you were a kid from time to time, cos we humans tend to remember and have nostalgia about times we spent the betters moments. 

But if you think about it, the times being an adult, you can enjoy different things, like what I mentioned. Also, it's not a sad thing to be alone sometimes. Sometimes it's good to have some time alone to relax, to know yourself better, also to be creative and make art.

Traditions help people to stay together.

As a dear friend of mine said, traditions help people to stay together!

The other day had the opportunity to talk with my dear friend and mentor, and I talked a bit about this, about this nostalgic feeling for old Christmas, the one I'm referring here. And she mentioned that in his family, the traditions they do on Christmas time have helped them to stay together.  I told her that in my case, that was true as well, and then, as I was saying that, I thought "Eureka!!"

Thanks to my friend I reminded that this is the most important part of how to help your family to keep being together.

What I'm referring to with traditions? For example, in my family we have a very beautiful and warm tradition for Christmas Eve. Some weeks beforeChristmas eve we plan what we are going to have for dinner, we talk about what we would like and we decide together. And some days before Chrismas eve we go together (all the family, yes! ) to the market and we buy the ingredients. Later, at that day on the daylight, we cook the dinner together. 

We usually spend all the day cooking, and since we were kids, my mom and dad inspired us to participate on this tradition, even if we did small tasks when we were kids. And then it gets meaning when it's the dinner time and we eat, because we all are proud and happy to know everybody have participated on cooking what we are eating! And  such a heartwarming moment! A moment that even today, I still adore! I think that's why I love Christmas so much hehehe.

 Realize and appreciate what you were able to do this year.

 I think this one point doesn't need much explanation...does it? Sometimes you do it on the New Year celebration; you sit with your family and everybody talk about the goals you have achieved this, or some cool thing that happened to you or that you have done, and that made you happy.
Well, I think is very good idea to do this on Christmas as well. Because that's how you appreciate what you have! Also, is good idea to give feedback to your family if they have acomplished some of their goals, at that way you will feel happy and cozy inside, and all that hepls the feeling of nostalgia go away as well.

Heheh, well, c'est parti mon kiki! That's all for now folks, I hope you have enjoy this article and that if you feel the "Christmas nostalgia", that goes away like it happened with me when I found out this solution!