Art with bad reputation...

Hiya folks!
This is a journal I also shared on dA, where I talked a bit about the art genre with the worse reputation of all the time. One that in my opinion, is not fairly earned.

This journal was written originally on Mon Jul 14, 2014, 10:53 PM 

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"Today I was looking for inspiration through the comics secction on here, cos I'm planning to make a comic, and by chance I saw in the comics section of dA, a comic about Sonami (Sonic x Ami) that  looked very sweet but was incomplete, and with an outgoing link.

So I tried to see because the pages posted on dA started romantic, and I like sonicXami, and I saw a couple of pages, then I realized it was an erotic comic.

So I closed the page and gone, cos honestly, I realized, that I was starting to feel a bit tempted to try this genre of art and comics for a moment. So that's precisely why I don't see that kind of comics. Luckily some minutes later, I said "Naah" and just went back to da. And I think it's great that I think so, cos this kind of comics, I've seen it causes a lot of troubles and sorrow.

Cos the life of an erotic aftist it's too haid, as I've seen for other artist. Cos erotic artists can't post them on most of the respected art sites, and they have to go and put their artwork in nasty sites like 4chan or rule34 or some of those, because in dA or other sites, they don't accept them. And then their art mix with the porn!! *eeeeeeeeewww* And people who are lucking for true art, don't see it, because we people who look for art and don't like porn, we never got to those kind of sites.

Also, to make this genre of art you need to put a truly huge and deep piece of your soul and mind to do it, and a huge part of your intimacy, and all that only to receive lots of pervert people who say stupid stuff, people who mistake your art with porn, and lots of critics and insults from people who don't know the difference, being mad like if you were drawing porn. Because I must admit, as an artist I know there is a fine line beween these two, clear but fine, so most of people are ignorant  and can't differenciate porn from ecrotic art.

I personally...I think erotic art can be fine and nice if it's done well, and I have nothing against it. And I know I have the skills and the intelligence and the touch to do it and to do it right.

But I just don't think I could take the pressure of people insulting me because of their ignorance and perjudices. And neither the huge charge of loosing some of my dear friends in case that some of my friends don't know the difference between erotic and porn.

Also I would like to work with disney someday, and make comics, books and movies for all the family, so. No .

I just don't think I'm the right person for this kind of work....I must say, in my teens and even a bit of time as a young adult, I always felt so sad about how rejected, and also how bad fame bad artists give to this kind of artwork, when I found something about it by accident, looking for fanart of my favorite cartoons.

And even now...I must admit...I feel sad when I find by chance artist's beautiful artwork of that genre mixed with porn, and people treating it like porn.

Also when people don't do this kind of artwork right, and they give bad fame to this genre of art....cos I think all this it's unfair!

.....But I have fait still, that someday there will arrive a person or group of people, who will do this genre of art in a right way, and will redeem it. But it will not be me.

It will be a person with more intelligence than I, with a more strong heart than I to receiver critics, more cultured than I...and wiser.

I must admit, when I was younger, I discovered this genre of art that it's treated so badly unfairly, and I felt a really bad for it's bad fame due the artist, who sometimes start well but later they became bad and start drawing porn.

And I felt sad of not being me the one to redeem the good name of it....but later I understood that....my characters can't be used for that, cos they have a bigger purpose, a purpose of helping people to see other wonders of the world...to give faith and hope and courage in another areas of life. And I can't use "anonimous" or random characters for that genre of art cos then it would mean nothing.

So some time ago I arrived to the conclusion, helped by a friend of mine who was there always, that this kind of work....sadly it's not for me for these reasons..which it hurts in my soul and it's still, hard to accep. But my characters and stories transmit messages for kids, and teens, and all people in general, that couldn't be transmitted if I decided to do erotic artwork. So at the end I decided to do things for everybody, than only a small group of people.

Even if it hurts me not being able to help to make people understand why they should treat this part of human nature with respect and dignity, and that it's beautiful and natural. It doesnt hurt so much right now...cos I'm very aware my characters have other purposes, to transmit other messages that people need to heard more.

And even if I'm not going to see her or him, I have faith that God will hear my prayers, and sent other person to do this noble labor or teaching people how to treat this part of human nature in the future!"

Finally Fulfilling a dream!

Hiya folks! How you're doing?

For the ones who still don't know, I'm at college now, I entered this past September 1. So yeah, that's why I haven't even passed by on dA in these  weeks. 

I've been so busy with the school in these days! It's the first time I'm not worrying about finish a homework so one of my teachers can see it tomorrow, when I have a free moment for myself. 

You know, I've never thought it would be this difficult, I haven't slept in 3 days because of the homework I need to finish from a day to the next! (so if I say something that sounds And yeah, that doesn't feel good =P... But well, that's the school, specially in this level of "university". we are no longer in junior high, here we need to search for almost every subject ourselves, that's one of the reasons why so much homework. 

 And yeah, of course I feel tired, I feel a bit like a zombie XD...yet I feel so happy oh my! :D How you can feel happy and tired at the same time, that's so amazing and bizarre! XD But it has a explanation! It's because, what I'm seeing at the school it's fascinating, and interesting, entertaining, and it's why if even if it's a lot of stuff to do, I feel happy and with energy to do it.

Also, not only the themes are interesting, but also my teachers are stupendous, and for what I've seen, my classmates are nice people too :) I'm still impressed I must say, cos it's the first time I see people who are nice with each others, my classand no, it's not a joke, it's true! 

I think...well I don't want to "put the salt on" as mexicans would say, you know, there's a Mexican saying states that if you say something it's going good you attract "the salt" the bad luck XD ...but yeah...I feel everything at college it's going great so far...even I would dare do say....tha I feel I've finally found a place I belong ^^...Where I feel happy, and inspired, I think it's cos I feel stimulated mentally and spiritually;

Cos my classmates are interesting, I've realized that we all have a lot of stuff in common! And as I said, also my teachers are awesome! They are interesting and cool people, people who like music, and drawing, design and art, I feel we have much stuff in common too! All this is awesome I think! :D

It's funny, I was going to study accounting, but for a good change of fortune, I've got the opportunity to study graphic design! So now I'm living one of my most longed dreams! Study an art-related career :D 

I was so naive though. XD Thinking that even in the college I could have some free time to write and draw as hobbie, or come here, even I was planning to write my first day at school, and the other days of my week! But no I couldn't!! :XD: Although as I said, I don't complain, all this is great :)

So, well also I come to say two things, first, my apologíes por being off too long. I've had a friend of mine who some time ago went to college, and for me it was a bit hard to believe she din't had time to come here in months, cos it was sad that at the end she decided to deactivate her account here, cos she felt bad for those who went mad or sad cos she couldn't have time to come and reply their messages in a good while. So now I apologize with her, cos I know that it's true! College takes almost all your time =P 

As I'm realizing, with the college it's going to be a bit harder than I though to have free time to spent on updating this blog or even drawing. What takes me to the second thing I was going to say:

I don't think I'll have much free time until vacation time in December, and even so I'm not sure =P We will see. 

I just would like to say I probably wouldn't be able to make to post more drawings here until the vacation time. I haven't drawn anything since Sept 1 the day I entered the school, except for the things I had to draw for homework So I think at the rare case I can update, it probably will be drawings from my homework *chuckles* I hope you're ok with that, homework stuff I have it's cool too! 

So, thanks for letting me share a bit of my everyday life with you guys, I hope to see you on December. A bientôt mes amis! 

Some of his great comments!

Hiya folks! How you're doing?

Today I'd like to take a time to talk about a dear friend.

One of his greatest features was his sense of humor. He was one of the most cheerful, warm and laid-back person I've ever seen in the face of the earth! Or the universe I would even say!

And I say "was" in this case, but not cos he is died or anything, just cos I'm referring that I haven't seen him in a pretty good time. For me these feel like it have been eons....so lonely and sad...eons...

But even if now he seems to be vanished, I would love to tell the world about him, about the amazing personality and traits of him. I would really love to do it!....I want so much to so it!...

But it's so difficult! Since it's been a long long time since I've seen him for the last time....And all the great replies to my comments I did on the page where he had his photos now aren't here!! so...

So I'm feeling like what this song I'm listening right now says.  And like in the song, I don't know why.  This is both, funny and a bit sad at the same time....I guess it's because maybe, my mind blocked his memories because...it was too much pain...at the moment I realized he was no longer there...and maybe all the pain I felt at that moment overwhelmed me...

Well, anways I'll try at least XD

But well, that's why the forums exists I think :D Some months ago I found a couple of his comments from him in the web that didn't dissapeared! Since they were in a forum, so it's my pleasure to share them with you.

And example of his humor...well I'm not sure if I can give you a good example....I wish I had all the great comments he gave me on the community where we meet....but I don't.  Because the account there was deactivated...And it gives me an strike of sadness and nostalgia to realize that I'll never be able to see those again...and I had no chance to save them because, I had a lifestyle that absorbed my time very much, and plus!I never imagined that something so sad that was going to happen!...

But there's a couple of comments from him I could find at least. This one that was from a forum, where we can see how he introduces himself beautifully.

And this intro it's beautiful, not just because his intro was very fun and very clear and elegant, but also for the form of how he writes, look! He writes in small separated paragraphs so it can be easy for the readers to read what he writes.

So here you can see a bit of his elegant way to write, and a bit of his funny phrases! The phrase that made me laugh the most in this text I think, was when he joked about how dA people doesn't make deep talkings....Because it's true! XD  Or well at least that's what I understood from this contexts of "huîtres"...I might be wrong though about the expression...if I'm wrong tell me please.

And I loved a lot this little joke about his english! It made me laugh the first time I saw it, and now it still makes me giggle and smile *giggles*

"Puis d'un coté je suis pas non plus une lumière en anglais.. Et ça se résume à "Pretty!"..."Thx..""

This phrase up there in particular, it caught my attention a lot specially because, "je suis pas une lumiere" it's a phrase that we also use in my country. So for me it was specially funny and cute seeing him using it, and realizing that there was an expression in french that was similar of the one where I live ^^  Here in Mexico we usually use the word "lumbrera" but it's quite the same thing, it's a synonim.

Note: I hide his real name here cos I'm not sure if he would like that people know it, since he erased his real name from his account, before it was deactivated.

Galoubet

Mar 19 2012, 22:07 Message #1

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Salut le monde! Je porte le nom de --------, j'ai 22 ans mais ceux qui ont une dent contre  moi disent que j'en fais que 3.. Et je leurs réponds que 3 dents plus celle qu'ils détiennes est largement suffisant et que nos employés sont au max de leurs  possibilités de production.. En logiciels j'utilise du PS CS5 et je débute d'ici peu Blender ver 2.62. Sur Photoshop je fais de la photo-manipulation, je le pratique activement depuis 8 mois. Blender depuis 3 jours (oui je sais ça fait moins sérieux mais je m'en moque vous allez pas me payer XD ) Je suis jeune informaticien plus précisément en tant que AIMMI( encore un titre pour péter de la brou!) Agent d'intervention en matériels micro informatique.. Ce qui regroupe trois modules de bases de l'info, Réseau, maintenance et hotline. Je pratique à côté en loisir l'ocarina et me suis mis au Ukulélé et je m'occupe d'un forum dédié à ses deux instruments. Je fais aussi du Airsoft avec mes amis et je suis aussi un passionné de MMO RPG Je souhaitais avoir un lieux pour discuter art, je sévi habituellement sur DA mais les gens là bas ont de longues conversations digne d'un intellect d’huîtres (pardon je souhaite faire aucunes diffamations au prés des huîtres..) Puis d'un coté je suis pas non plus une lumière en anglais.. Et ça se résume à "Pretty!"..."Thx.." Merci à vous d'avoir pris le temps de me lire.. Ah aussi Molière a un jour insulté ma maman depuis je me fais un plaisir de massacrer sa langue et au passage foutre un coup à sa grand mère..Donc je m'en excuse..

Other thing that I've always loved about him, it's how proper and polite he was. But also that he could defend himself when someone goes to insult him...without sounding vulgar, with still being proper! Like he does up there. That's a great trait on a man I think, being able to be proper and elegant and still be able to defend himself from people who is mean with him....And well, of any person in general, heheh.
Also that of "massacrer sa langue"  it was cool, made me laugh a lot! XD  You would think I'm crazy, but I love how french people use this expression, although for an english-speaking it would sound like "a bit disturging or weird" but for me it just sounds funny.
I think is cos here in mexico we also say this when talking bad a language, but obviously, it's not literal, but figuratively....some English-speaking people take all too literal XD

Now, this one was a comment he made on a flower photo, on a very popular art community. He was making a joke about how the petals of the flower were falling, like if the flower was death. And I thought it was so funny, because he was acting like a detective! LOL
I only post the quotes to protect the identity of the people, cos I'm not sure if they want me to mention them. And I wouldn't like to make anybody feel bothered!

Hello, thanks for the kind words, but no, the rose was photographed in my family's garden and I darkened the background to black. But it was too simple, so I used a "falling rose petals" photo from the internet and I merged the 2 layers in Photoshop. I know, it's rather a  photomanipulation, but here the rose photo is more important than "Hey, look at this, how good I can use my Photoshop =  Manupulation", so that's why it's not in the manipulation topic. But I will do a better 'manipulation', cuz here the petals are extremely small, I wasn't careful enough :S

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Plaenan Sep 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

Ah ah ah !
We pass to confessions? You have remorse?
Where were you the june 23 at 14h? And how do you explain that Mrs.
Rose died suddenly in the garden? Garden where you were on the day of the assassination!
(Just kidding of course)

If I asked this question at the outset.
This is because your flower has a impressive sharpness.
I asked me if you had just used a macro lens and a teleconverter who is fixed on  the first lens for boost the zoom power.
This has the effect of darkening the background with a macro flash. And I thought you had used this technique (because it interests me).
But you have answered me.

For the rest, the photomanipulation is not prohibited in the photograph it is called post-precessing.
But anyway I do not have to judge you on your personal choice.
We have the right to say we love it or not. But to say that it sucks, it's of egocentrism.

But that it become not a hindrance to your progress.
As an artist you have to have the humility to listen to the opinions of others even if it is not positive and it can hurt you.

In any case, thank you for your reply.

I'm agree on this what he says about post processing, it is something that it's ok in photography, and well we all have the right to have their opinions about it. I particulary think it's a great help sometimes. And also I think it's true what he said, that as an artist you should have the humility to listen other people's opinions! That is a very clever comment in my opinon.

And look how he knows about his stuff! ^^ I hope someday he can come back to tell me what he was talking about when he referred to the teleconverted and darkening the background....because I have not idea of how to do that *shy giggles*...and me who have been into photography almost a lifetime...that's a shame! shame on me! XD...
But well, I use a a pocket camera and I have no bigger trouble with it, so I didn't worry much about the techniques at that moment.

Well...so that's all folks! heheh...
And I know, mabye this doesn't tell you much about him...but well...I tried my best! Not reminding much of him in these moments it makes me a bit sad...but I'm hopeful I will later :)
I hope this can give you a laugh or two, heheh, and you can have fun reading this blog.

My gecko and I

So yes, even despite I've received a few of sad news, specially when my pet died.  It happens that I keep designing  my characters, and struggling to make this story work.

And what about what I commented about my doubts on my skills?" you might wonder. Well, the true it's that since some time ago I had those doubts, and there are people who will always try to make you to have more and more doubts.

Like for example what they say in that episode of the Simpsons I saw once. Where Lisa discovers the author of her favorite book didn't really wrote the book. And then Lisa tells Bart that it is possible for one single people to write a book, but Bart says no, and him and other 5 people get together and try to write a book. In the episode the group writes a book at the end, and lisa doesn't, cos she keeps postponing it.

This episode implies that one single person cannot write a book, but I think that's not true, cos I know a friend of mine who have wrote a book all by her own.

I think Lisa couldn't write, but not cos she doesn't have talent, but just because deep inside she wasn't sure of her own talent to write, so he did lots of things to avoid to write.

With time in my experience, I've discovered that  for writing you not only need talent, but also persistence and faith in yourself.

And well it's normal actually, to feel doubts when you're starting an artistic project and you notice there are setbacks, but these are always like "little rocks in the way" so to speak.

But I think they are there to make life more interesting and exciting, and doubts assault you, you just need to try and relax a bit. For example, when you feel stuck in doing an artwork (writing, painting, etc) what I would recommend a lot is to take some time to relax, to do other things. Things like, I don't know...like taking a walk or make a picnic in the park, to go to the beach, play with your pet if you have one, play a cool video game or to watch a good movie, that always helps and makes you feel ready to re-take the story or painting or comic or anything you're doing.

So, yes I'm in this business still, and a few days ago I did this sketch in Sepia. In the up side it's Laura (the main character of this story) as a teenager, and his pet who it's a gecko, and who still doesn't have a name, so you can suggest one.

The other drawing it's Laura  as a kid, and that's the scene where she shows the gecko his home, it supposed to be made of glass, and it has some drawings that she glued there to decorate the house, but since she's a kid she draws a bit sloppy.

And no, it's not a Cemetery! XD it supposed to be a drawing of London she made, cos she lives there and she likes the place.

That why I made her live on London? Well...because of the British accent of course! :D ;)

Yeah I know, probably I will never have the chance to released this to tv so voice will be useless, but...but just in case XD

Also in the original story she was British and lived in London, cos I would love to visit London someday.

Here I share the sketch without painting so you can see it is London. There, the tallest building is the Big Ben.

Do I really have the skills?

I've been really bored today cause there's nothing on TV....I come online and there's nothing here, too.

I used to think when I felt like I do now, that it was mostly cos I felt lonely...like...sad...cos I realized that actually nobody cares about what I do or what I don't...

But I guess not...cos there are a couple of good people in my life who do care...And truly appreciate and admire and who I wouldn't change for anything!  I just wish I could be able talk with them very often...

...I'm trying to figure out how I feel, and I think mostly...it's that sometimes I just feel tired of life...of the world...of the horrible things some people do to our fellow humans...And mostly, I feel tired of struggling and working hard and waking up every morning with a hope and do my best in everything, and that even so, even after that it seems that I can do nothing, to make this a bit better world.

And then when it comes my turn to die...nobody will remember me...I feel like I'll never be able to give this world something useful or worthy...something they really like...

Today I saw a comic that promises to be awesome for what I've been seeing so far. And it's so cool..but it makes me a bit sad too, I only wish my stories and artwork would look that cool ...

Don't get me wrong, I'm always glad when I see other people creating stuff that is successful, but...but... why for once it can be my turn....why once it wouldn't be me who can create amazing stuff?...Sometimes I feel desperate cos, I think I will never Invent a comic that can be amazing like the ones I've seen *sigh*...

I haven't even wrote since the last time I was writing and I lost everything. But I'm not sure of how find the motivation...Some time ago when I was having lots of inspiration for a story, I talked about one of my stories with one of my closest friends, someone whose opinion meant a lot for me, and he made lots of negative comments about it...since then I have not much inspiration for writing, I have vague ideas of all my stories but no end or no beginning or troubles with the plot or something! But there always have to be something wrong with them!...And I don't know what to do...

The same applies with the college career I signed in this year. It's Graphic design...And I chose it because that's what I wanted since I was little, to have an career that was Art related, and later to use my talent to create amazing and wonderful stuff that can make people laugh and cry, be moved, think and reflex, that can give them hope and faith to realize their dreams, that make them...think for themselves! That was my dream...but now I'm not sure if....if this was the right choice...cos I see it's getting too difficult for me to make a comic or book.

Maybe I should have chose accounting after all, and settle with being an accountant cos my drawing and writing skills never were that good to do something successful as I thought?....

I don't wanna think so though...I really don't. 

....It's wrong that I don't want to accept setting with giving up on making a comic or book?.... You my fellow artist who are reading this, have some advice to find the motivation to write or make a comic?

Rest in peace Toby.

Well, it happened that I came back where I always used to post...but just to post Toby's tribute, I thought it was important.

This is a drawing I made for my brother's birthday of Toby, and I post it cos I think it was the perfect tribute to him. Hope you like it, and there's a quote of what I said on that respect this Friday. Toby died this last Thursday.

"Me and my family are sad, cos Toby died yesterday...
He was passing for hard times since November last year's, first cos he was suffering a lot of pain due kidney problems, and later for problem his stomach and intestines. We took him to the vet and he was in treatment....he was injected several times with medicine, and some days it seemed he was recovering, but there were days when he tried to eat, but he felt sick and he vomited...and since he couldn't take the nutrients of what he was eating, even if there were days when he felt good to eat, he lost a huge part of his weight.

And yesterday...yesterday he didn't wanted to eat anything. So I accompanied my brother to take him to the vet, and the vet put Toby a serum injection, 2 times, the vet said it was normal cos ferrets suffer of that when they get old, and there was not much to do, but that maybe with what he gave him he might feel better. But when we came back home, he looked too weak and he didn't eat...and in the night he died. 

Poor Toby....I cannot imagine how much he has been passing for...if just for us was really hard to see him suffering...But now he is in peace now. And I know we are going to miss him a lot...the house isn't the same without him...
But...even if it sounds weird..lI feel great relief knowing he's going to be alright now. No more pain and suffer for him, he now is happy in heaven....he will be better than here. So, this is a little tribute for Toby that I would like to share with you today, I hope you like it.

Toby was a warrior, bold and brave! The vet said he was so strong, that other ferrets would have died long time ago. But he didn't he was there to give us love for 7 years, even when he was old! And he was very healthy actually, he didn't had any poblem, until a year ago. Rest in Peace toby, your soul it's in heaven now!

Today we went to the super market, and also to a vivarium, we bought a lemon tree and we are going to plant the tree and put toby near to it.
Why the tree?...it's just an symbolic thing, you know. Usually people leave flowers, my mom and dad had the idea of planting a tree. I think it's very solemn and warm way to show him that we loved him. "

Not sure if I can come back

I'm not sure if I should come back yet to where I always used to post my artwork before I did this blog.

Cos there is a person who once, some time ago, I considered a great friend of mine, in these months have said so many hurtful comments about my art a while ago.

For example some time ago he sent a message weird messages that were stressing me out. In the messages he was upset cos he said that I had "faved pics of people smoking" and he was worried that "I started to smoking"... and I was like "what the....!!" It was silly and weird to me how he just assumed that I "suddenly started to smoke" from nonwhere, since he knows me, he knows what I think about smoking.  I think this was not polite nor corteus at all :(

I think the thing that weirder me out the most, was the fact that this pic was just drawing of a japanese lady drinking tea!....

And it's not the first time he or assumes or says weird things that doesn't make any sense, and makes me feel hurt and sad....

Some weeks days ago, he said he wasn't agree about the kind of art I posted, or what I made...for example, the last thing he told me and I remember a lot, cos hurt me a lot personally, was one day when he got mad because I made a little giftart for a friend that was fanart, and he said that making fanart was stupid and a was a waste of my time, and making giftart was "like bringing the coffee to the people", "like being a pet of the people" And well...who wouldn't have been offended or at least somewhat bothered if someone goes and calls you "the pet of someone"? o_o

But I think what  hurt me was more the form of how he said it. And the fact he was mad at me cos he seemed to force me to think like him, and I told him I didn't.

 What hurt me deeply was that it felt like he was forcing me to think like him! And he didn't even wanted consider to think of what I was saying about why I don't think that fanart or gift art is stupid...or even consider that I can differ on him at some points and was ok. I feel he wasn't listening nor paying atttention to my ideas about the subject and was just trying to push his ideas on me by force. So there was no dialogue on that conversation, which made me feel really unappreciated. Because I from my part did take my time to try and think about his point of view, and try to understand why he thought that way...

He says the problem it's the difference of ideas, but it isn't. The problem is with him, it's the fact he's a very conflictive person, who always expect people to think always like him. And  he doesn't accept someone saying they don't think the same.

That's not a good trait of personality you know...and you know I'm a  relaxed person. I don't get upset about stuff quickly, but that's one of the very very few things that can bother me when people do them: that when you differ with them in something, they try force you to accept their ideas as truth, without listening to you! Without trying to "wear your shoes" so to speak.

I know that many people would go and say that I should just stop contacting him...but...I'm not sure...

He was once a good friend of mine...we used to spend cool moments talking about art and other stuff....

So I'm not sure of what to do...this is really weird for me!

Since I've never had an arguement like that with any friend in my life,  with nobody actually! But only I started to have them with him when I met him, and thus,  I deduct it's not me who's wrong.

It's not me who is causing that, it's him who is inmature and can't accept that people can have their own opinions. Cos if all this it was by my cause, then I would have had the same problems with other people, but I don't.

 In fact I always care to be a tolerant and patient person and I always respect other's ideas and opinons. Even when they aren't similar to mine, and even when they seem to be crazy, cos I really don't like that people try to pull their ideas up my throath, that's why I would never do that!

And with him...when he feels mad he's used to swear AT ME, and that's one thing I'm sure I shouldn't allow people do to me....but I don't know what other thing to do....other than take a break from contacting this person to think on how to tell him about that, so he can understand how I feel and doesn't do those negative (and nonesense!) comments about my art in the future.

I hope I can think of a good way to solve this soon....cos I really don't like conflicts....and I just don't want more pain and sorrow...that's all.

So, meanwhile I'm not sure if I can go back to...to post my stuff where usual. That's why I did this blog and now I'm using it.

Cos the case it's that he have been done this for a pretty good time, just that first I didn't noticed it because it was gradually getting worse. 

And there was a point where I started to realize that due his negative comments I was losing my passion for making artwork! And I started to worry cos I didn't wanted that, so that's why I had to do it...I had to make this place, a place where I could make art in peace without complains or negative comments of people who just want to annoy!

And this is the only think I had not tried yet. And when I made this, I felt way better, and now I feel I'm slowly recovering my passion for making art, which it's really great and makes me feel happy.

But also I feel sad in part...cos this it's really the first time I actually need to take a break from someone....I  don't like people who alwas find an excuse to argue and complain about everything, these negative and conflictive people are toxic, spiritually talking...and I a bit worried now cos I think I've get met one person who is like that...but it happens that he as been a good friend at first...so I'm taking my time to think....

And well, as I said earlier. I personally think that making fanart it's wonderful! Cos fanart it's the root of inspiration for most of artist. I think probably almost every artist's beginning in art was thanks to fanart, thanks to the inspiration their favorite movies or shows have given them! I also love fanart because it's a fantastic and fun way to practice different art styles of drawing and different techniques of painting and stuff.

And I love drawing giftart and I think that's even more amazing, cos that's a wonderful way to show the people you love and care how much you appreciate them! ^^ And that, that it's priceless! To do something with your own hands and pouring your heart in it, that's always million times better than a bought gift.

Plus if if that wasn't enough! There is some crazy people bothering me with messages that say I should go to argue about stuff that I'm not interested, or that I don't like but I also don't think arguing about them would be of any help. For example they say "if you don't like yaoi and yuri then sing this petition" or "join to this anti-porn group" "anti-new disney channel" or a group for hating X or Y subject.

And that just...get me out of my nerves! Cos seriously, I just don't see what's the point of that nonesense arguing on dA or to join to groups just to hate something. O_O ...I wonder if that people have something worthy to do with their lifes...probably not...and that's why they just are on the web to make their and other people's lifes bitter...
But I do have a life! So I wouldn't do any of that, in part cos I think that has no sense at all. It's not productive, it doesn't help anybody, it just creates violence, and negative vibes for the spirit. I mean, man if you don't like something, just don't see it!!! That's common sense.

And specially I wouldn't do that, because my time it's so limited, thus is VALUABLE! Well, it always was valuable, but even more now! And if I have some free time, even a little, I wouldn't waste it doing such dumb stuff. I will always prefer to use this time to do something worthy and good; to hang out with my friends, to do do cool artwork or to write about something I DO LIKE :)
But it doesn't help anybody to go to argue with crazy people saying "I don't like this!!!" XD

Well, that's my opinion at least. When I was a lot younger, people sometimes convinced me of doing that kind of stuff a couple of times...until I realized, doing that it's an useless thing.
Cos I realized if you don't like something cos you think it's wrong, and you want to help to make this world a bit better place, the best way to do it it's as I just said up there, to do some productive stuff with your life, do cool art, that kind of stuff.
Also, well, for example, if someone likes the shows of new disney channel series and you think are dumb, then I think you should tell them to respect your opinion and you should also respect the opinions of other people.

So yes, I'm taking self-teraphy to recover from the things that happened lately on the place that once was my home...and my self-thearaphy it's writting here! XD

I think the best thing about being intelligent and studying human mind, that you can analize yourself and fix your self! *chuckles*

Letting out this from my heart was difficult....but if I'm right, this will help me to health my heart a bit and feel better. :)